Reflection of 2018
2018, a year full of laughter, tears, surrender, hope, accomplishments, prayer, losing friends and gaining new one, hard decisions, growth, and so much more.
God has done so much in my life this year, so I though as 2018 is coming to a close its time to reflect and thank God for all He has done in my life this year. Good and bad.
First 6 months of 2018
I have to admit this year was the hardest year I have ever been thought but especially these first 6 months. but I also had a lot of accomplishments in 2018. In late January of 2017 I put in an application for my youth groups worship team. Yes, little 14 year old me put in an application to sing with a bunch of young adults lol. In January, I applied for a 11 week worship leader developmental class {WLDC} at my church. I got accepted to take the class! {were I was the youngest}. In march I had additions for the worship team which went HORRIBLE, my nerves really got to me...... about a week or less after my additions I got a call {while I was at Disney} that I had made the worship team!!!! It was a life long dream coming true!!! But after that audition I was shocked. In the background of all this happening and even in the last 3 or 4 months of 2017, I was going though some tough times but little did I know they could get worse. In April I went though rejection at its finest. I cannot remember a night coming home after being around certain people not crying my eyes out because how I was being hurt and rejected by others. Countless time's I wonder why God was letting me go through this, and why now? When I was trying to rejoice about all the things I was being blessed by, I was also being hurt and felt rundown. Matthew 10:22 was my life line in these time I don't even remember how I found it, I just remember finding it at the right time. It says,
You will be hated by everyone because of me, but the one who stands firm till the end will be saved. Matthew 10:22
This was just what I needed and what I'm constantly reminding myself.
On May 30th I sang for the first time at my youth group. It was a experience thats indecriblable
In June I left on my birthday to Toccoa Falls, Georgia for a summer camp with my friends church youth group. And it was amazing like always. I always get on such a Jesus high I never want to leave. There were tears, dancing, growth and times where I was able to open up to my close friends about what was happening and them covering me lots of prayer which is the best thing I could ever ask for!
Last 6 months of 2018
After all the VBS and volunteering was over, on July 31 school started again along with all the hard college level classes I'm already taking I decided to add more classes and not to take a summer break this coming up summer, all to graduate early to pursue a calling God has given me to do missions before I enter college....... around this time I had to make a very tough decision which was to step out of a place were I was leading worship in my church. {and no it was not youth} in September me and my Mom travelled up to DC, where I love to go its somewhere I know I can always go to get away from all the crazy and hurtful times in my life.
And now the end of the year I was able to bless and encourage someone to strengthen there relationship with Jesus which is probably my favorite thing to do. I got to lead my first song at my youth group!!!! Which was amazing!! But there was also hard thing had to go through. I thought I was fine after everything that had happened in the beginning of the year but little did I know more was to come. Not to long ago I was attending the church service on a Wednesday night I was one of the first people in the sanctuary. I found me a perfect seat with lots of open seats around me for all my friends……. and no one sat next to me. I laughed at this and thought it was hilarious lol. After a while no-one there other than one of my friends talked to me the entire night. When I would approach people they would give me short answers. I had no idea what was going on. But for some reason it got to me. I was hurt I even felt rejected, to the point where I had to step out, away from everyone and take a breather which turned into tears. But I again quickly reminded myself of the verse I mentioned earlier, and got myself together again. Then, we had all the holidays.
And now were here the end of 2018. And the beginning of a new year. A new year to love others even when its hard. A year to know God and make him known. A year to step into what God has for us. Even if its not what we think this year is going to look like. A year of giving God our yes!
So that was pretty much my year.............
Like I said full of lots of accomplishments, laughter and at the same time tears.
{which is funny b/c I'm not much of a cryer}
God has done so much in my life this year and still is doing so much as we head into 2019.
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